I feel happy when you’re around. Your smile charms my emotions to a stir and I can’t help but feel vulnerable when I stand within a short distance from you. Anticipation has made me a thief, stealing glances your way when I can. Your blue eyes ever as clear as my resolve to want to love you. We’ve met eyes time and time before, shortly followed by a smile, a face, or a laugh. But is it all a jest? I feel that pursuing this further will end in shame and embarrassment on my part. And yet, I can’t help but daydream of what could be. Us. I scoff at the thought of us ever being together, and yet thoughts of it keep resurfacing. No matter how much I attempt to brush you off from my mind, you linger and play with my idle time. I hate you, and love you all the same.

~ Chaucer

Let’s keep busy in our daily lives, shall we?

If you grow content with what you have, your days will inevitably dull. Look for something greater, always try to find the next step towards something fulfilling.

It hurts.

…while I’m stuck in reverse. Living in delusions is not the way to live. Call me stubborn but I’ve been stuck on you for quite a while now. But now I realize I’m looking for love in the wrong place. I need to forget you and it starts now. And I realize now that I run miles to forget. It’s just how I cope with things like this I guess. Off to run.

Meh.

…to win against your doubts. I was tired for my run tonight for some reason. I didn’t think I could get to the top of that hill. My right foot wanted to give in and my lungs were gasping for sweet air. But I told myself to keep going, made it over, and kept running to the end. Never give up! Your body may give in, but your spirit should never crumble.

I’m only human. Last night was definitely a mistake. It’s funny, why do we find ourselves repeating the same mistakes over? Is it human nature to never learn from our past mistakes? No. That answer has to be no. If humans could never learn from their mistakes, everyone would be stuck in their own personal vicious circle. But we all have witnessed that a very broad aspect of life is indeed, change. However, I’ve realized that in order to make an important change in one’s life, one must acknowledge why the change is needed in the first place. I definitely acknowledged the “why” last night. I regret what I did, but I can only move on and learn from it so that the next time I find myself in the same situation, I’ll be able to make the right decisions. I apologize to those I’ve angered and annoyed, but more importantly, I apologize to myself whom I let down the most.

Life is a series of trials and tribulations - sometimes we win and, unfortunately, sometimes we lose. But there’s no use in wallowing in our weakness. You get up, and try again.

I was born with only one heart. But I was blessed enough to be born with a pair of ears so that your voice might lead me to you, a pair of eyes to see true love for the first time, and a pair of hands to hold you forever in my arms. And so, I embark on this journey called life, to finally find the pair to my heart.